Saturday, September 20, 2008

I am a toddler's mom.




Here is the scoop: I found a part-time job working Thursday afternoons at a busy dental office but they needed a sub for most of this last week so I took advantage of the opportunity to get a feel for what my family could handle. I also acquired a solid list of smart, dependable babysitters from the university and our branch that will make it easier for me to work a little.

I worked a LOT this week. (24 total hours)


After working a whole day on Thursday I came home A
CHING to see Grant and Henry. I missed them so much. Henry was asleep. Grant and I played 'airplane' for a long time and I felt so sad that his two-year-old-ness won't last for very long. It is such a gift that I get to be home with my kids. I will have years and years available for work when my kids are all in school, and beyond. I don't know why it is so tempting to work when they need me. Sometimes I feel confused about my priorities. So what if we don't have extra money. Luckily, dental hygiene is so flexible. I've decided one thing: full work-days are too much (especially since I am still nursing Henry). I'll stick to a couple half-days, thank you.

Remember when I had Grant THE DAY I GRADUATED from DH school?!?!? good grief.

Yes, I was given a degree AND a baby in the same day.
I must admit, I was more interested in the baby.
I still am.


10 comments:

Stephanie said...

i feel like we nearly posted the same thing today or yesterday...

ambrose was already asleep when i got home last night and i went in and stared at him- aching is the right word (although yours takes on new meaning since youre nursing) and i just cried. i missed out on half a day of new discoveries with him. lesson learned.

Kimberly said...

Emily that picture is priceless. I'm glad you found a job. I remember that working four hour shifts was the best thing that came into my life when Rustin was in school. Good luck with the babysitters!

shauna said...

Way cute pics of Grant. Lukas looked at them with me and just kept saying "Grant in Ohio. I want to go to Ohio too." I think he misses him. Congrats on finding a job! I would also miss my little guy if I went back to work. You are awesome!

Brock and Kristina said...

Funny I just went through the same dilemma yesterday....it is so darn tempting to work more! I currently work 20 hrs a MONTH in two 6 hr shifts and two 4 hr shifts...just enough to make up the difference between living expenses and student loans, and my boss just offered me to work every tuesday a full day...in addition to what I'm doing. It was so TEMPTING....EXTRA money. But then I sat and thought about everything that comes with being a mother...a toddler and a new one on the way and I turned it down. I think my boss thinks I'm crazy because he knows brock is in school full time. But what can I say? We definately made the right choice. :)

Unknown said...

Those are darling pictures. Those juggling days will past sooner than you think. I had to work with Evie the first 6 months of her life but, I think you knew that being my visiting teacher. I too had that aching feeling for Evie. It is nice to have a good ward and relief society to support you through it.

Camille said...

You are The. Cutest. Mom. Loved this post!

Burdick Family said...

Emily, I loved reading your thoughts about extra money. That is always a huge battle in our little family, especially since Jimmy doesn't have a job at all, he's just going to school. I only work 3 days a week, which is plenty for me. But, that also means just getting by. The way I see it, the bills are getting paid, we have what we need, and I still get to be home most of the time. I know I would regret sacrificing these few short years of Carter's childhood for "extra" money. Dental Hygiene really is the best job for a mom!

Jenn said...

those are the greatest pictures of Grant ever! Welcome to working mommyhood. It's not fun, but sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do...and things get better and easier as you go along. try the bunch of half days before you decide to go that route, I thought that would be what I wanted too, but I didn't want to go to work every day...so, I decided it was better to put in my full days and just get it over with. I don't know how we do it, but we do. Being a mommy is the best gift we could ever be given, except during potty training times. Chin up, it'll all work out,and you're a great mom because you miss your kids, think about all those moms out there who go to work because they can't stand being at home. I chose hygiene so that I could have both if I needed it, and sometimes we really do. It's hard to raise your little family and provide for them too, I don't know how single moms do it. We're so lucky to be able to only work a half week and get a full week's pay. We'll keep you in our prayers. Austin misses grant, he always tells us he went byebye to ohio. We'll talk soon, I'll get you through potty training, I promise. I really miss having you here, I think we would have had so much fun! Especially chocolate making time, I don't know what I'll do this year, I'll be so lonely!

Jared and Jami Hobbs said...

I know the feeling! Don't worry the time will come to work. Being a mom is harder but way more fun!!!

Kate Call said...

your kids and their facial expressions.. love it!! and yes.. you have always been more interested in having a baby than in dental hygiene.. i remember one of our first coversations you told me how bad you wanted one and how ready you were! you're too cute! i love hearing you talk about your kids.. your one of the sweetest girls i know!